I used to dream of a perfect life.
That's why I'm here.
Is this all I have been dreaming about?
Am I having the best time of my life right now?
Next year am I going home and saying "my year was okay"? No I'm not.
I'm just sitting here alone, every minute here is one minute closer to that day when I go back home.
What will happen then?
Is my life ever going to be the same again?
That pic is from my last night in Finland. I remember walking alone and thinking "am I doing the right thing?"
Do I belong in here? I don't know. Do I belong in Finland? I don't know.
Is somewhere a place that I belong to?
Can I ever find that place?
I want to see so many sunsets and sunrises and city lights and happy people.
People say that I'm so brave. Am I?
Where would I be now if I had said "no" to the Duke Ellington School of the Arts?
I would be in a normal american high school somewhere else in this country.
Would I be happier there? No.
But that could be the place I belong to. Could it? No.
When can I get right answers to these questions? Never. I'm just guessing.
Someone is listening to "Don't stop believing" outside. I should be sleeping right now. I will never stop believing.
ihana postaus! :)
VastaaPoista